Okay, I'm BACK.............like I left my coffee maker running.
This is the part where I really had to make sure I did not come off sounding like C. DeLores Tucker or Sharpton or some shit. Why the need for the Murda Death Kill in the first place? Again, I am well aware that I am guilty of this and if you go to my page you will probably hear something to that effect (even though the dosage is small). However why do we feel the need to express hatred, as though it's going to make us likable? WHY DO WE KILL, or at the current status quo pretend to kill, or threaten to kill? Because your from the hood, because your gangsta? Everyone who lives in a "bad" neighborhood is not automatically a "bad" person, and gangsters would not shout a laundry list of crimes they committed into a microphone. Being a GOON, PIMP, HUSTLER, and GANGSTER are not good things. I don't do business with "hustlers" because they are not trustworthy and will probably try to steal. I don't let "pimps" around my family and friends because they are users, and manipulators. Gangsters in the truest sense of the word are not independent thinkers thus they are always caught up on some "group think". But more so than the rest "goons" are just fucking dumb. "I rolls around with the goons" well you know what Jack, you are a fucking goon. Show me who your friends are, and I will tell you who you be. So if you're constantly around low lives and criminals then you're probably scum in one shape or another. Think about it before you get all sensitive. If you see me…..right, and I am always around heroin addicts, and I dress like them, and relate to them, and "they are my people"……right. And one day you try to sell me some heroin, can I really be mad at you? DON'T FUCKING JUDGE ME YOU DON'T FUCKING KNOW MY LIFE NIGGA…………c'mon B. Give me a fucking break. I couldn't be mad at you, the same as a college kid who has a lot going for him, which dresses, talks, acts, and is constantly in the company of savages can't be mad at one of you for punching him in his face for cracking wise with you. HE MISREPRESENTED HIMSELF and a lot of you are doing the same. You might as well walk around with a stethoscope and some scrubs on. "I aint no doctor, don't judge me", riiiiight. Don't get me wrong beloveds. If you have got to do what you have got to do to survive than SERVIVE PEOPLE. I know that the rules are set in opposition to us. I know the teachers did not try to hard to reach us. I know ……TRUST ME. But at the same time, you know now too. So if you have been blindfolded, and I have been giving you piss to drink telling you its water……..THE BLIND FOLD IS OFF NOW…….put down the urine. We know its rough, but don't fuck up your own people……..that's just selfish. If you are REALLY a gangster……like a real one, then I have a request. DON'T PAY YOUR RENT. Try that shit. Don't pay your rent, because that shit is "extortion, and you don't play that". And when the sheriff comes to put your shit on the street, SHOW HIM YOU ARE A CERTIFIED G. You're a killer? Well then don't pay your gas and electric bill. Now when that utility man comes to clip your shit, HIT HIM with the Hecker & Koch. You're a pimp eh? Well my permed up pal, why don't you march your pimping ass down to the capital building and tell those fucks you're not paying taxes anymore, and you're tired of "hoing" for the US Govt. Then when they put you on trial for tax evasion, you show that judge what happens when you cross a real playa. Anything short of that and yall are nothing but posturing vaginas in funny clothing. Now I already warned you that I was going to get side tracked so let's go back to the main road now. All this death talk comes from the people who are most afraid to die. I would rather be judged by 12 than carried by 6……..really, well consider my direction the polar opposite. I would rather die than live on my knees. Would you really rather live as a slave than die as a man. Well bookings is the new slave ship, and they are catching free men left right and center. But you would sooner kill your brother than the man holding the whip. I know I am being kind of a dick here, but think about it for a second. None of us are REALLY suicidal......right? Subconsciously we are self destructive at best, (smoking, drinking, and eating meat) but this is a bit of a different bag. Killers, as in people who kill other human beings for money do not make a big deal out of it (death). Its one of those strange universal constants. Kind of like how rich people don't talk about money. Contract players, are discreet, usually have jobs, and are seemingly quiet and mild mannered people. That's why they are not in jail. Thus if you are a rapper that cant go 16 bars without catching some sort of imaginary body, than we all know your really a fucking liar PERIOD. So quick to murder, and assault, and yes even RAPE in a rap song, but in real life they are not even comfortable in the same room with a corpse. I have a friend that works in the morgue and she tells me about all you "D-Boys" who can't even look at a dead body. Why promote death if you're not comfortable with it? Do you think if people are convinced that you will kick in the door waving the 44 they will buy your record? How many records do you buy based solely off the artist's criminal docket? This is obviously directed at rappers and so called musicians, because they are the biggest culprits. The funny part is these are the same people who will be on the news crying into the camera and begging for justice when they loose someone close to them. In the last eight months I have lost six people I consider friends or family members. Chances are, most of us have lost people that are close to us (it's been a bad year yall). Some of it was senseless, and some of it accidental, but NONE OF IT WAS COOL. No one wants to hear a rap song from the person that murdered their peoples. No one wants to hear ill words spoken of their dead. How can anyone rap about shooting people and be even the least bit surprised when someone you know gets shot? Are we that self interested? Are people only people when you know them? My point in all of this being, if you're a rapper who "wont hesitate to kill" and "venerates the steel" don't be surprised when you find yourselves "featherweight 4 real" floating into the hear after. We have got to take some responsibility for the words we use, and the message we portray. If killing is cool, then death is cool. Unless you are of some strange new religion that I am not familiar with, where the nigga you shot and your dead aunt Gertrude go to two different places because you get to choose YOU'RE A HIPOCRITE. No disrespect to anyone who has and Aunt Gertrude. Remember one thing………. If you take a life, it's not just the person. It's anyone they would have fathered, children's children, and so on. Any one they would have inspired or touched. That person could have said some quick shit in passing to kid on a bus that turned out to be the next president. I know it's far fetched, but that's how I look at things. So either I am a hippy and a flower child, or your just an unenlightened schmuck. Take your pick………but I work in finance, and vote republican (RON PEEZY) so there aint a lot of unwashed poncho's and homegrown over here.
Death is promised for all of us. Look at that like daily motivation to live righteous and in tune with your deity (whichever one you like). So I truly hope that the friends I have lost in the last few months are resting in piece, because half of them did not live in it. As much as I miss my friends and mourn for their loss, I am not swayed to forget why 3 of them died……..their choices. We choose the paths we walk, and the devil aint just a liar……..he is also a really convincing salesman. Certain paths come with hard work, and pay off much later. Others pay off now but are fraught with such danger. Wrong road and your close friends will look like they strangers But if God is your guide in the jungle you won't stumble………just be patient RIP to all those lost recently, and a special shout to everybody who lost em.
And just as important……….what do YOU THINK?